Tuesday, April 17, 2012


This is a perfect picture of how I'm feeling today. It was a busy one. After feeding the boys and cleaning up, we went to a program at my brother's church. I worked this afternoon so we left early, dropped the boys at the babysitters and rushed to school in time to eat some lunch before teaching. Then I did the grocery shopping, dropped them off at home (which involved throwing the cold stuff in the fridge/freezer and throwing the rest on the counter) and feeling completely overwhelmed at the messed left that I didn't have time to deal with before leaving this morning. Then I picked up the boys, brought them home and heated up dinner (thanks to Alice's mom for the yummy noodles and not having to cook), sat down with my family and vented to Joel about my day. There were other contributing factors tugging at my emotions but at that point I was on the verge of tears.

I don't tell this for sympathy. Many of you are probably reading this thinking..."yep, that sounds about like a typical day around here." Many, if not most of you are busier than I am. But being busy stresses me out. I don't thrive on running from place to place. I get overwhelmed. I am not the best version of myself. I've come to realize that I need to make better choices. I need to eliminate things from my life that are unnecessary or not useful. Maybe I need to work less and just focus on being a better mom... one that isn't rushed and disengaged because I have to get supper on the table. Maybe I need to delegate some of my responsibilities. Maybe I need to give up some of my expectations of how much I can do and what life can be like at this stage. I know I have some thinking to do. Life is busy. It's inevitable when you're a mom of young kids, but how busy I am is a matter of choice. Time to make some choices!

1 comment:

Tish said...

Sorry you have a rough day. Of course we've all been there, but that doesn't make your experience any less valid. And don't let anyone ever let you feel like it isn't a valid emotion. I hope you are able to prune the unnecessary so that you get the balance than you need. It is indeed a tough struggle. Thank-you for sharing.